Sometimes night time seem so much easier to get through. I love driving at night, being here in Sweden this has got to be great place to be with nighttime driving since the nighttime kind of starts at four a clock in the afternoon. It’s also a lot of great tv shows at night so that’sreally good too and it’s also a great time to snooze mode into writing something smart I guess….
Spent the day waiting to get inspired enough to clean the flat, wasting time I guess but I have to say it was well needed recharging in the sofa watching tv to figure out what to write about and being updated with the worldly matters.
Other than that happy enough to see things för what they are and sometimes it’s a waste to just let things roll further depending on direction. So to chuck things in the bin can maybe sometimes be very revealing rather than hard work with just clean results at the end of the day, I guess.
At the moment I just need a perfect dream to go with this evening to feel a bit more like it’s forever lasting
I was hanging out writing my new story yesterday, trying to get as much sunlight as possible during the day, amazing that just daylight can do such difference. Picking up daughter from school, celebrating weekend, yipiiiii, and just looking at tv shows enjoying the evening as much as possible.
It’s pitch dark outside, I guess it’s morning looking forward to the days getting longer I have to say, but it’s cosy anyways. So the day just started, weekend, and lots to do.
Today I spent the day recycling garbage, meeting a friend at the airport and school started again after the Hollidays for my daughter, so driving there and picking her up. So I had some spare time to go sit at a cafe and get my new story a bit more organized.
So been kind of busy all day and just sat down to think things through a bit more in the evening whilst waiting to watch my favorite tv shows. I love the renovating houses and buy property shows and I also enjoy the conspiracy shows and Ancient Aliens and projekt blue book and shows like that. Some people think it’s a waste of time watching tv, I think it’s regenerating and reflecting getting inspiration. Waste of time is maybe more to go to the recycling centre…. I just want to make stuff out of all the garbage, it’s just so much matter going to waste.
So whilst wasting matter sometimes gets in the way of our daily business I just have to think how it would be with a little village just built out of waste materials found at the recycle centre.
I used to write about the market of trading, I love CFD trading and I have to say that Brent oil has been my favorite for a long time. Since I decided to write about more common things, since there is more to my life than Brent oil, or I would sincerely wish that there was more to my life than that, the big thing is then what to focus on writing then. Yeah I am somebody that is writing and writing and wanting and wanting and aiming and doing and a person that enjoy the longing somehow and creating the way there I guess. Sometimes I wonder is there actually more to us than the conspiracies that surround us or the conspiracies that should surround us to get us a bit smarter? I am trying to se above all that to just have a clear picture of reality I guess. But being a person that is writing Science fiction mixed with adventure stories and fiction in general, there is a lot of power to go with the undefined reality.
So I guess I am trying to puzzle the pieces together, mostly in my stories but also in general with ordinary day topics and doings, whilst hanging out here in Stockholm I am mostly waiting for something to happen I guess, while trying to create something to happen, expand somethings that works in my universe at the moment and in my directions. And whist waiting, I am being kind of happy.
Today Stockholm was as good as ever. The city was kind of back in business after all holidays and I avoided the rush hour conveniently with being a bit late to start with. Perfect timing.
Since one of my New Years goals for 2020 is to expand what I should be doing I was surfing around Instagram to find good inspiration. Since I am figuring out what I should be doing as a concept as well I sometimes find the flow of instagram or Facebook with the pictures getting me bit by bit closer to what I am figuring out.
So with all that in mind I am eager to sit down and write towards my new manuscript every day to get a clearer picture of what I am aiming for whilst getting the story closer to the end.
Spent a bit of the day walking in the forrest, obviously keeping up with certain resolutions…. (applause please). It was so nice and refreshing, saw real animal footprints (I’m used more to concrete grounds living in the city) so it was kind of exotic to see, amazing what creatures that can be out there even though in Sweden. I was kind of happy to get back to town again after all I have to say.
It was so calm in the forrest so all my fantasy set in, kind of unreal with the settings I just went straight to it building castles and towns up to the sky, very inspiring. So that makes me all set with inspiration for a good work session tonight with my new manuscript. Science fiction at the most, so the conclusion has got to be; the bush is great but preferably with a touch of cyber space to go with it.
Daylight this time of year, here in Stockholm, is so refreshing so I went to the far out beaches for a walk today. It was pure luxury. It was so peaceful and nice out with only the swans and breeze making movements in the scenery. Very photograph inspiring with all reality almost like pictures in a fram views everywhere, anyway. So beautiful. It’s only about timing to get out there I guess, at the right hours, at the right place, at the right day, I should definitely focus a bit more on things like that more often, felt so nice to warm up in the car when driving from there. Makes a good differens to think in a nice place swell.
After that the snow to town….
Looking forward to a new week after all the Hollidays. A bit more work to do and a bit more structure to my work writing. I should post more pictures to my stories maybe so have to figure out that and just keep going I guess.
So yeah while waiting for the sunlight to get longer hours and the days to get warmer I am happy to see the snow brighten things up a bit more out here in Sweden.
So great with weekend and hopefully some time to do more than just earthly shores like organizing the home. My flat is, at the moment more like an exo planet; maybe habitable and capable of containing life. = Should have booked housekeeping…
So instead of wasting time wasting around cleaning, I am currently writing, getting updated with articles and news, getting inspired to work even more and be more clear with how to expand my ideas.
After the Hollidays I seem all up for some new ideas to come my way and clearing out the pictures of what I want to do and how to make things happen. So while I am thinking about wasting my way, I progress => up to get a coffee from cosy lay in bed, to start the day with unwasting the dishes to get a clean glass, and creating the memories that I sometime will smile thinking back to = I just have to say that I love weekend mornings.
After spending the day driving and thinking about how reality sometimes comes through in comparison to expectations, I just have to think a bit more about it to have a correct picture. I sometimes feel so ‘in’ with my fantasy stories and images and caracters all built up in my dreams and mind and sometimes reality is just something else. And then sometimes reality comes through as expected, but in a different way to what needed or wanted.
So I spent the day kind of longing to get home to concentrate and continue my dream world all built up in my stories and sit down to write and let it come to me, that’s just what I want to do. To create the background, the build up, the storyline, the reasons, and the solutions, I guess the world in where the story is happening. And sometimes it’s so much easier to be in that ‘reality’ since it all make sense and is more direct preferably than in my way. If that make sense?
So having a clear road to what I need to happen, might be to work for, synchronize the programmings around me to fit with each other, the stories and reality, rather than focusing on just what I want?
For now I am just happy to be the kind of person that I am, a bit stuck with my goals, very stubborn I guess, very loyal to my commitments and I wanting to keep promises that lasts forever. And this dream is continuing towards reality because of love and honest passion to a story that needs to be told. Is that maybe more of the drive of writing this story sometimes rather than actually telling the story? Does that if so make it more real?
I have to say though, reality is very far from the story itself…. it’s total science fiction. hahahahaha. I was just avoiding to be feeling fake….
Reflecting over things achieved in the year 2019, to make a good list for the year coming with setting goals, checking boxes and kind of setting the road to come.
I wrote the manuscript ‘Loyalty for ever’ in that year, 2019, that was one of the set goals and a big achievement and a long lasting goal so I am so happy to find that in the box of 2019, at the end of the year. And I have to say that I look forward to continue the story about the sisters this year 2020. So the goal about a trilogy about ‘Unifying species’ and the adventures with the sisters; might be getting there.
Years ago I had for a study or goal or New Years resolution or something to become a better human being and that kind of stuck with me a bit for a long time after. Today like years away since I even thought about it I can honestly say that it made a big difference to me to reflect over that. How to become a better human being, I mean everybody kind of doing the way they think is the best way, other ways one changes to a better being, right? It makes more sense today than then I think, but it became a ground to being me. And I can really tell how it affected me and how I choose to be, in so many ways. It made me a lot of who I am today and drew a path of being nice if that make sense. So the power of a New Years resolution can sometimes be bigger than even thought and a change can start in so many ways and have a lot of impact in many ways. That whole thing made me kind I have to say, as conclusion.
So maybe to expand and continue the stories as a trilogy this year is on top of the list and get to that line where they all live happily ever after, that would be an amazing feeling.